The Truth Will Be Revealed and the Truth shall make you free (John 8:32) if you will allow it to. The choice is yours. All you have to do is ask and then to walk in that Truth. It’s a process and the Truth makes all of the difference in every situation.
September 7 is our 19th Anniversary! My wonderful beloved Mother found this beautiful card which simply says so much:
You’ve been an inspiration
As you’ve met all life’s demands,
You’ve weathered ups and downs,
You’ve earned true admiration
For the happy years you’ve spent,
For on that day you said “I do,”
You’ve shown that’s what you meant!
Author Unknown
Ecclesiastes 12:14For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.
God’s word tells us that the Truth will (make) us free John 8:32. In all things be true and search for the Truth before you act. Know and prepare yourself for the Truth. Ask God to prepare your heart to handle the Truth. Trust the Lord with all of your heart and he will guide you and you will rest in Him.
Proverbs 3:4-6 Pray for the Truth to be revealed and then walk in it. Put on the full armor of the Lord and Never allow satan to win!
John 8:32And ye shall know the Truth, and the Truth shall make you free.
Proverbs 3:4-6 4 Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Ephesians 6:10-12 The Armor of God 10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Praise The Lord Our God and Make his deeds known among the people!
Psalm 105: 1-11
1 O Give thanks unto the Lord; call upon his name: Make known his deeds among the people 2 Sing unto him, sing psalms unto him: talk ye of all his wondrous works.3 Glory ye in his holy name: Let the heart of them rejoice that seek the Lord. 4 Seek the Lord, and his strength: seek his face evermore. 5 Remember his marvelous works that he hath done; his wonders, and the judgments of his mouth; 6 O ye seed of Abraham his servant, ye children of Jacob his chosen. 7 He is the Lord our God: his judgments are in all the earth. 8 He hath remembered his covenant for ever, the word which he commanded to a thousand generations. 9 Which covenant he made with Abraham, and his oath unto Isaac; 10 And confirmed the same unto Jacob for a law, and to Israel for an everlasting covenant: 11 Saying, Unto thee will I give the land of Canaan, the lot of your inheritance.
Father God I come before you with praise and adoration. I thank You and You alone Lord for providing me with this testimony. Only You Lord could look down on someone like me and make my mess Your wonderful Masterpiece. I will testify Lord according to Psalm 105: 1-11.
FatherPlease open the eyes of our hearts so that we may walk in your blessings. Thank You Father for this brother or sister reading and may their personal testimony and walk with you be completely for Your Glory. In Jesus Name. I Amen Your Word. Amen
Hebrews 9:28 so Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.
Acts 20 27For I have not hesitated to proclaim to you the whole will of God. 28Keep watch over yourselves and all the flock of which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers.[1] Be shepherds of the church of God,[2] which he bought with his own blood. 29I know that after I leave, savage wolves will come in among you and will not spare the flock.
Rise to your occasion, you are NOT defeated! NEVER give up!
Kathy Troccoli, Jeff Franzel and Rick Witkowski co wrote a song entitles “Break My Heart.”
The lyrics to this song touched my heart and the words my testimony bubbled forth. If we listen closely and are obedient, God will speak to our hearts.
Break My Heart
I’ve known laughter
Days of fun
Had many hours in the sun
Been to many mountains
Walked along the ocean shores
I’ve seen rainbows fill the sky
Counted stars on summer nights
Oh, so many moments
That have filled my soul with joys
But, it's been the rain
It’s been the storms
It’s been the days
When I’ve been worn
That I have found You Lord
That I have seen You Father
It’s been in the pain
That I have grown
Through all the sorrow
But if that’s what it takes
For you to lead me this far
Go ahead and break my heart
Wow! Does this simply touch you? It touched me. I was at the end of one trial and at the beginning of a new one when I heard this song for the first time. Let’s face it we will always have a circumstance. Jesus promised peace that passes understanding through our trials. Philippians 4:7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. I am sure that Father God placed this song in my life at the perfect moment to birth this testimony. He is our on time God and His timelines are always perfect and to be in His timing is to be in His will. God’s will is my personal ultimate Goal.
The Lord continually thrills me with His timing. God is so very faithful and good. I praise Him continually.
Hebrews 13:15 Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise–the fruit of lips that confess his name. I have learned to praise Him through the good times and through the trials. Praising Him through the trials enables me to walk through the circumstance and ultimately receive His blessing. He is truly worthy of all glory and praise.
My husband, daughter and I had recently moved to Florida. We were literally beginning all over again. My husband and I both left jobs that we had worked at for more than a decade. We had healthcare benefits, profit sharing, paid time off and other worldly benefits. We had a home; two vehicles and we were for all practical purposes living the “American Dream.”
We went on a weeklong vacation in July to visit my brother and nephew in Florida. My brother’s wife had recently gone home to be with the Lord and we were reaching out to them in love. Our daughter was 10 years old at the time and our nephew was six. When we returned home God spoke to our hearts and He said Move. Let go of this “American Dream,” move from North Carolina to Florida. Please understand that we believed in God. Our daughter was enrolled in a private Christian School and although we didn’t go to church every Sunday, we had faith. However, we were not walking with Jesus, we were not born again, Holy Spirit filled believers. We simply believed that Jesus was born and that He rose again to save us from sin. We had faith in The Lord and wanted to step out in obedience and in faith because we were STRESSED, BURNED OUT, SPENT. We had worked so hard to achieve what we thought that we wanted but when we looked into our own lives we saw emptiness. My sister-in-law was 34 when she went home to be with the Lord and her death had a profound effect on all of us.
We lived in the world, of the world and by the rules of corporate America. Work, pay your taxes, have stuff, by now, pay later. You know The American Way.
I can say this now because I know now that there is such a difference in having faith and believing in Jesus and Walking With Him through our lives. Life is an adventure and we have to be willing to leave what we know and step out in faith with The Lord. He has already been there. He knows all of the wonderful blessings that He has in store for each of us. (Is God asking you today to go on an adventure?)
We were stressed, my husband worked 60+ hours per week and I worked 45+ hours per week. Our daughter was at school or after school for the majority of her life. We were consumed with making a living, not realizing that we were not really living. Stress had taken over and frustration filled all of us. Moving seemed to be an answer from God. Starting over, beginning again, re-creating our lives, it would be fresh and new. There was something in Florida during that week long vacation that simply did not exist in North Carolina.
Within two weeks we put our home up for sale and made arrangements for our daughter and I to live with my brother and nephew until our home sold. This worked well because my nephew had to undergo surgery on both legs and would be in cast for 9 months. Having both children in the house would be great because they hadn’t been in Florida for very long and had not had much opportunity to make friends due to Ellen’s illness. I resigned from my position at the hospital and we arrived in Florida in late July. We enrolled the children in a reputable Christian school and we moved. We were obedient, but we were not all together. My husband was in North Carolina and we were in Florida.
It took a very long time for our home to sell and during this time we only saw my husband a few times. He was working in North Carolina and we were waiting for him in Florida. Many nights our daughter and I cried ourselves to sleep because we missed him terribly. Everything in our lives had changed and we didn’t have anything around us that was really ours. It was as if we were on a very long odd vacation.
We began going to Victory Christian Center, where our daughter and nephew attended school. It was a small church, wonderful praise and worship and loving Christian people. It was here that I learned how to pray. I had always faithfully prayed, I clung to the Lord’s Prayer and said it every morning when I awoke, every night prior to going to sleep and every time that I became even the slightest bit stressed. (I had no idea at that time what power this prayer has - Do you realize that God is His word? Jesus Christ - the WORD). I continue to say this prayer throughout the day and urge everyone to learn it and speak it out loud.
I also had a little book of God’s Promises in my purse and it went with me wherever I went. When I needed God I simply went to the book and said “OK God I have such and such a problem and when I would open this promise book a scripture would always be there to direct my path.” At that time I had no idea whatsoever that this was baby food. I began to learn scripture this way and I began my walk with Jesus.
Pastor’s Mark and Evie Ostrander were the pastors and administrators of Victory Christian Center/School. Their entire family worked at the school, preaching, teaching and in the music ministry. They were all truly anointed musically and I had never heard anyone pray or praise the way that they did. I was touched on a level that I didn’t even know existed within myself. It was at Victory that I was born again, baptized in the Holy Spirit and received my Holy language. Prior to the moment that I went up to the alter; I truly didn’t even know that there was such a baptism. I was called by the Lord and I ran down that isle to the alter and received what the Lord had waiting there for me. Since that moment I have been starving for the Lord, His presence, His word, Him.
Jarred Ostrander was our daughter’s teacher this year and he is a mighty man of God. She related to him and he made an extra effort to reach her because he knew that she needed inspiration and hope. I praise God for their entire family and include them in my prayers always. They allowed the Lord to use them to reach our family in a way that was purely God.
I learned from them that there is a way to pray. God listens to all of our hearts but there truly is a manner in which to pray. Faith comes by hearing and hearing the word of God. I learned the meaning of effective fervent prayer, offering praise first and asking only when the door to the throne had been opened for you to ask. That God provided His word for so many reasons, approaching Him being one very important reason. But in all prayer and supplication the Ostrander’s taught me to speak God’s word to Him in prayer and that it is the expression from a sincere heart that touches the Lord. He is moved when we are sincere. He is moved when we come to Him boldly with His word and humbly with our requests, knowing that He alone can solve our issues.
Romans 10:17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
I am not saying that God does not hear our prayers. He hears all of our prayers and He answers them according to His will and His will is His word, He gave us 66 Books of His Bible so that we too would know His will (His Word). What I am saying is: (As always God’s Word says it best and All of The Glory To Him)
Psalm 100:3-5
3 Know ye that the LORD he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.
4 Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name.
5 For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his Truth endureth to all generations.
James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
My husband came to Victory a time or two when he visited us but he was very distant. He didn’t latch on to the church. He seemed to be unreachable at that time. For a while I did not truly believe that he was going to join us in Florida. Pressure was mounting up in North Carolina, the house had not sold and he seemed to be somehow different. We were struggling financially, our debt load was significant and he was stressed. He didn’t want to hear anything about my newfound faith or that I had faith that everything was going to work out for our ultimate good. He simply would not hear this. I felt that there was something terribly wrong, but passed it off as stress.
Romans 8:27-29
27 And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God.
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
29 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.
The Lord placed my brother in our lives at that time for great help to one another and for many lessons. This is a testimony unto itself. For another day perhaps, but I am forever thankful that our daughter and I had the opportunity to spend this time with my brother and nephew at that time and we will love them always as Jesus loves them. (Always remember that God is total restoration and reconciliation, He does not do things half way, He is perfect and He completes every single project that He begins).
At this time in my life I began using my new prayer skills and language. God also blessed me tremendously with Joyce Meyer Ministries. A friend in North Carolina told me about Joyce Meyer when I lived there. I remembered that she had planted this seed one day by bringing me a Life in the Word magazine. One day while flipping through the channels I heard her name and watched the program. STUNNED because it was as if God was speaking through her directly to me. Her words were made for my situation. I have watched her faithfully since that day and partnered with her ministry. I order tapes, read her books and go to her conferences. I have learned so much because of her willingness to allow God to work through her. Praise God in the Highest and all of the Glory to Him.
I began learning about giving, receiving, living and the “Battlefield of the Mind.” My mind had indeed been a battlefield. I never protected my mind. I had a vivid imagination. I would stay up all night long, thinking, plotting and planning out conversations in my mind and trust me my thoughts were not always Holy. I was manipulating my own life through my vivid imagination. I was very fearful of confrontation. Therefore, if there were ever a situation where confrontation was necessary, I would just ponder on it and come back with the perfect scenario, act it out and almost every time things would go exactly as I imagined. I’ll bet you too that God’s way in every case would have been better, more peaceful, a quicker work, and work out on my behalf each and every time. If I didn’t spend my time thinking through everything, I did not have control. Since childhood, I had the mindset that things were going to be a disappointment, never get my hopes up, just accept what God brought and be thankful that He brought anything at all. As long as I didn’t expect anything grand, anything would be acceptable and if I could try to control each situation, then I would know what to expect.
I was not letting go and letting God. I was not casting my cares onto Him. I didn’t leave Him any room to work. My mind was far too busy planning.
My Mother has always said “May the blessings be Beth and they will.” I was learning that what I thought up and spoke out would be because God gave each of us free will and that I very much needed to start reading and speaking God’s word instead of allowing satan to work through my imagination. I did this because I could not risk the fear of the unexpected! I wanted control and planning everything out the way that I thought it should go was my way of controlling my own environment. Only I wasn’t controlling it satan was and I was allowing him to plant wrong seeds into my life and therefore made wrong choices.
Does anything here sound remotely familiar? Why is it that we allow satan to use or imaginations rather than realizing that God created our imaginations? GOD CREATED IMAGINATION, HE SPOKE AND THINGS WERE. Read the book of Genesis. WOW. We need to learn to use our imaginations the way that God intended! Don’t allow satan to get into your mind. Use your mind to glorify the Lord! Use it to create peace, joy and love. You can because God granted us free will.
Our home finally sold and my husband moved to Florida. He was different somehow. This move was supposed to be our new blessing. It wasn’t a good beginning. Something was WRONG! I could never pin point it but something was broken. Our total financial situation had changed and our relationship had changed. Everything seemed to be going wrong. Not at all what was planned for our new beginning.
I had begun a journal and I wrote a prayer during this time. I said it over and over.
Father God, I praise you and I love you. I come before you to worship and adore you. I am lost Lord. The things that were supposed to give me joy are making me miserable. I prayed for a new life, a saved husband, to be a stay at home Mom. For our financial situation to be debt free and always have enough.
Moving so far away from home was supposed to alleviate so many problems because we were to begin again without the stress of our corporate America jobs. Now we have no income, my husband drinks more than before Lord and there is so much strife. Something is lost in our relationship.
Father God in the Name of Jesus I ask you to reveal all that I need to see. I want a Holy family, a peaceful home. I want a Saved, Holy Spirit filled husband and wonderful father to our daughter. Please Father show me the way. In Jesus Name.
Time went by and we were settling into our new lives. We began a business with my brother. We had to change the children’s school because vandals viciously attacked Victory Christian Center. As always God had plans for everyone. He is so wonderful. The pastors and their family are so musically blessed and God furthered their radio station. Remember God never allows anything to be taken away from us that He does not replace bigger and better than before. If we are OBEDIENT.
The children liked their new school and we were so totally blessed by God in the relationships that He fostered there for us.
During the summer prior to beginning Brevard Christian School our daughter began asking if we could adopt a baby girl. Just out of the blue she began to have a very strong desire on her heart to pray for a baby sister. Believe me when I tell you that she prayed fervently about this baby sister. She would not let it go.
Under the circumstance I could not get it thorough to her that it was not the time to include anyone else in our lives. That we had much work to do on ourselves and that a baby was simply out of the question. Please understand to that our daughter has very strong faith and a wonderful relationship with God. She had always come to Him as a child and was obedient to pray when He laid a burden upon her to pray. Finally, I sat down with her and prayed in agreement with her.
June 2001 – Father God we love You and praise You and You said in Your word that if two or more gather together in Your name and ask that it shall be done for them. In Jesus Name if there is a child out there that You will for our family to raise then we will gladly be obedient and love, nurture and accept this child. Amen
Matthew 18:19 Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching anything that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.
God is so wonderful and He proves again and again that He has a plan, He knows the plan and that in His own time, He will unfold His plan. Praise Him because He is so worthy.
Psalm 40:5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.
Our daughter was blessed with the most kind, loving and wonderful teacher at the Christian School that she and my nephew attended, Tiffany McFarran. She is an angel sent from God in Heaven just for our family. Actually her entire family was sent to us, but that is a continuing testimony. The McFarran’s are a dear blessing from The Lord and we will cherish our covenant relationship eternally.
Our daughter suffered tremendously from this move to Florida. She had become attached to her school in NC and her friends at Victory and now she had another school change. She sensed the stress and strife in our home and Tiffany was there for her. She listened, and she ministered to her heart as only she could. God placed Tiffany and her family, husband Jason and children Taylor, Josh, Destiny and Bishop, in our lives at this moment knowing that we would fulfill missing pieces in one another’s lives, over and over. Covenant Relationships through Our Lord Jesus.
As a mother I will never be able to thank her enough because she truly always allows God to work through her. Our daughter is a mighty woman in God’s Kingdom and Tiffany’s influence on her life allowed the faith within her to come out. All of the Glory to God for He is so wonderful!
Tiffany’s husband Jason took an interest in Brooke and he is and has been a wonderful male role model for her. He encouraged her and let her know that he was there if she wanted to talk. Brooke related to him and he allowed God to work through him to minister to her.
Our family was falling apart, our financial situation was not good and there was much strife in our home. Our business was STRESS. Nothing was working and I was on my knees daily praying and pleading with God. Through watching Joyce Meyer I had learned about giving and had been giving what little I had (not tithing because I had virtually no income). I was giving a large portion of all that I received.
One day after Life in the Word, I saw a commercial, John Avanzini’s Miracle Money commercial. I called the 1800 number and a few weeks later I received the booklet. Just before that a dear friend gave me Joyce Meyer’s book Prepare To Prosper. I prayed and gave as the Lord led me to. I began standing on God’s Holy word and His promise to:
Luke 6:38 Give and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.
I also faithfully went to God’s word and asked Him for a verse to stand on. He gave me NIV Bible: Romans 13:8 Let no debt remain except the continuing debt to love one another. For he who loves his fellow man hath fulfilled the law.
King James Version: Romans 13:8 Owe no man anything, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law.
I began to absorb God’s word and found myself literally starving for His presence. I had to hide my giving because my husband did not believe in that at all. So I had little bits of money here and there and I prayed about it and sewed it obediently as the Holy Spirit directed me to.
I kept praying for revelation, for all Truth to be revealed. During this time I had been watching Kenneth Copeland daily and through his ministry I received a wonderful book of partner prayers. I read through this book and began praying for keys to reveal this situation and move it forward. Kenneth Copeland taught me how to stand on God’s Word because His words have creative power, they are life to those who speak them. God’s word is alive, latch onto that and NEVER let go!
Genesis 1:3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.
5 And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day. 6 And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters. 7 And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so.
Genesis 1:9 And God said, Let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land appear: and it was so.
Genesis 1:11 And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so.
We must all learn to walk in the Truth. When we pray for Truth to be revealed in our lives, we must ask God to prepare our hearts and lives so that we can deal with the Truth and not allow it to deal with us.
Father God in Jesus name I come before you and ask that you guide this beautiful child of yours reading to all Truth. May your Truth be revealed in their life and may you walk with them along the way. Give them your strength, your compassion and your joy as they begin to walk in the Truth that you have for them to see. In Jesus Name I amen Your Holy Word. Amen
Learning to walk in the Truth and being prepared for the Truth is one lesson that I have under my belt now. Here is the Truth that had to be revealed to me. Please remember that if every aspect of your life is strife filled and nothing seems to be going right, there is a reason for that. Work with the Lord to walk in the Truth and don’t fear. You will be amazed where He leads you. (Please read Truth scripture references at the back of this book.)
I was simply stunned. I thought this could not be true, it had to be a mistake. I fell to my knees and prayed, Father God in Jesus name please lead me through this. Amen
That night I took the letter and casually asked my husband if it was true. He very blankly looked at the letter and looked up at me and said (and I quote), “I was lonely.” Fifteen years of marriage and that was all that he had to say. I just sat there and prayed. “Ok, Father God, what do I say.” Words lept out of my mouth as if I had no control of them and I said, “Well, I can love any child. Maybe it is Gods will for us to raise this child.”
Luke 21:15 For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict.
Proverbs 16:1 To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the LORD comes the reply of the tongue.
Proverbs 16:9 In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.
As I said, the words leapt out of my mouth. I know now that I had enough of God’s word inside me to allow His wisdom to come out of my mouth at that very important moment. Psalm 19:14 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.
Remember that your words reflect your fate, what comes out of your mouth first is what is inside of you. Although we had to walk through a process, God was in my heart at this time and He had prepared me for this moment.
I simply ignored the pain and went in the house to cook dinner. However, that night I was awakened by an audible voice (I truly believe that this was the voice of the Lord), and He said, You must send your husband away. I need to have him alone because as long as he has you, you are a crutch.” And then God asked :If you do not send him away what kind of lesson will this teach your daughter?”
The next morning I obeyed God. I told my husband that I could not simply accept what he had done and that being lonely was no excuse at all. That I wanted him to leave and that if I simply ignored the pain that it would be wrong for all of us and definitely teach our daughter the wrong lesson. He tried to convince me that we could work through this together but that he understood and would leave.
I told him that he had to go to NC and face up to this and find out if the child was indeed his. That he had to stand up and be a man and work through it. I gave him my book from Kenneth Copeland and told him that if he choose to read it, that there may be some very useful information in it to help him thorough this very difficult and painful time.
After he left I needed strength and I continued praying and watching Joyce Meyer, Kenneth Copeland, Creflo Dollar, Benny Hinn, John Hagee and anyone that was on TBN and Channel 52. These mighty men and women of God were paramount in my walk with Jesus. I thank God daily in Jesus name for each of their ministries. Through their obedience to Our Lord in being Godly teachers they took me by the hand and helped The Lord mend my broken heart. I am stronger everyday in the Lord. I will continue to learn from God’s mighty men and women eternally and I truly hunger for more and more education each day. My hunger for God’s presence multiplies daily.
During this time I became friends with our daughter’s teacher Tiffany and her husband Jason. They had taken her under their wing even before I shared our circumstance with them. I explained the situation to Tiffany so that she could be for her at school, if she felt the need to talk. They reached out to us and invited us to their church and one Thursday night we thankfully attended Greater Faith Center with them.
Time passed and my husband returned to Florida. He told me that the child was indeed his and that he was so very sorry for the pain that he had caused. He actually cried and cried. He told me that he could not live without us in his life and that he had made Jesus Christ the Lord of his life. He told me that he read Kenneth Copeland’s book and that he had realized the bad decisions that he had made and that he wanted another chance.
He was living with my father and step mother. They put him to work at their home and Yvonne later told me that she discerned from the moment that she met him that there were things going on. She watched him work at her home. Work through the pain and the problems. Work with the Lord to heal. Being in their home presented an opportunity for he and my father to fellowship and Praise God my father was set free from alcohol abuse during that time.
Our daughter invited Ben to attend Greater Faith Center with us and he began going regularly with us. We were still not living together at this time and I was still unsure about our future together but we had a daughter together and she needed her father and I truly wanted to be in God’s will.
Jason and our Pastor Brian Gregory (two awesome men of God) took my husband under their wings during this time. They offered him true Christian fellowship and they were there for him every single step of the way. He learned that God had a plan for his life and that he was truly forgiven because when you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord, the old man passes away and a new man comes forth. He was a new man in Christ and has learned through God a strong Christian male role models to allow God to order his steps and that he will succeed because God promises that if he is obedient that he will eat the good of the land. Praise God for He is so worthy!
One Thursday night Pastor Brian Gregory called my husband and I up to the front of the church and prayed a prayer of reconciliation into our lives. We began learning about truly walking together with Jesus. My husband became an usher in the church and we began learning about tithing together. Our family was beginning to mend, God was knitting us back together. It has been a process, it did not happen over night. We began standing on family principles together and to realize that we had been living of the world and not of God. We had never lived according to God’s family structure. There were so many things that attributed to our situation and we had caused the situation by making wrong choices. Not just my husband and not just me, we. We also learned how to take responsibility for our actions, for our anger and for our lives.
Through planting seeds in obedience and standing on Romans 13:8 together God began to pore out blessings upon us. We were healing one step at a time and finally for the first time in our marriage we allowed the Lord to order our steps.
We sent out 100 resumes during this time and Ben received one interview. God blessed him with a wonderful job in Florida. We had to move several hours away from our church family at Greater Faith. We go back and visit as often as possible and we have learned so many lessons through our relationships there. All of the Glory to God!! In Jesus Name.
John 10 9 I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture. 10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. 11 I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep.
Ephesians 3 19 And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fullness of God. 20 Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us, 21 Unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen.
God told me to turn my husband out and through my obedience He gave me one of the desires of my heart, a saved, Holy Spirit filled husband. A husband that would stand before the Lord with me through anything, believe me if we can survive this I mean ANYTHING. God is so Good and I Praise Him! Not simply attend church with me, truly stand before the Lord God Almighty with me in Jesus Name and walk with Jesus.
God always does things above and beyond all that we could ever ask for.
When God says cast your cares on me, 1 Peter 5:7 Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
He means exactly that. Through my obedience I was blessed. I will NEVER say that any part of this has been easy because that would be a lie. It has not been an easy situation. I can tell you that through the heart breaking process there has always been a light that has shined through every single step of the way. Psalm 23:3-5 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Jesus is there to walk with you through your circumstance no matter what it is. He offers Peace that passes understanding.
Jesus is walking with us daily now because this is a forever deal. Our situation will continue on forever because there is now a beautiful little girl that we love with all of our hearts. She is a blessing from God. The fruit of the womb is always a reward. You see God will take whatever satin means for your harm and turn it for your good. Trust Him and Praise Him for He deserves all of the Glory.
The most difficult thing about our situation for me personally was not my husband’s infidelity. I grew up in a household that ended in divorce because of infidelity and alcohol abuse. I had been told my whole life that that’s just what men do, so expect them to do what they will do and don’t be surprised when they do. Put a big fat expectation out there and the devil will gladly run with it. This was embedded in whom I formerly was. I say formerly was because I am brand new in Christ. I am no longer that girl who allowed vain imaginations and negative junk into my mind and heart. I have high expectations and they come from God’s Word.
We must be very cautious about those negative expectations. Through Jesus all things are possible. Please go to the Lord in prayer right now and ask God to reveal any negative expectations that have been embedded in you and purge them from you.
Father God we come to you in Jesus name and ask that you reveal to us any negative expectations that have been embedded in us. Reveal and purge anything Lord that would prevent us from walking in the best that you have for us.
The God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory,… give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power. Ephesians 1:17-19
In Jesus Name Amen
The most difficult thing for me in all of this is that when I was 28 years old I underwent a total abdominal hysterectomy. I Iost several babies prior to the birth of our daughter. I could not have anymore children. It had always been a desire of my heart to have a house full of them. I mourned over the loss of my womb for so long. I mourned deep inside myself where no one but God could see my pain. There was a deep seeded sorrow and bitter root inside me because I no longer felt whole anymore. I could no longer fulfill the role that God himself created woman for. In all of this I am so very thankful that God brought forth my beautiful daughter. I do know what it feels like to fulfill God’s wonderful purpose and I am exceedingly grateful and I count Brooke as one of my greatest blessings.
I am testifying to tell you that if you allow him to, satin will use what will hurt you the most. Satin has come to kill, steel and destroy us, it is his only goal. He wants to steel our spouses, kill our dreams and destroy our families. He tried to use the one thing that he thought could hurt me the most (An innocent child).
However, he can only hurt us if we allow him to. Embed this in your memory!! The battle is not yours God said it’s mine!! Satin is a liar and a cheater! Let God fight your battle! He has already won. We have to allow His word to get deep into our hearts. We must live these words Greater is He that is within me than He that is within this world.
Please remember I began in North Carolina with The Lord’s Prayer and a book of God’s Promises and I obediently took an adventure to Florida where God led me through this pattern: I stepped out in faith and obedience and God blessed me through Victory Christian Center; with Life in The Word; with the Believers Voice of Victory then He Changed My World with World Changers International and then He Healed me through Benny Hinn Ministries and then I was blessed with Greater Faith and Hope for a Woman’s Heart to share this testimony with you. HE GAVE ME VICTORY first. As soon as I stepped out in obedience to walk through this process and He had mighty men and women that are committed to be obedient to Him on every side of me every step of the way!! He had already chosen them and ordered our steps. Glory to God and Praise Him for He is so worthy.
God and God alone can take whatever the devil means for your harm and make it GOOD! Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not unto your own understanding. Praise Him through your circumstance. He is so faithful. Jesus shed His blood for the forgiveness of our sins. He wants to wrap you in His Love today. Let go and let Him. Don’t allow satin to steal your family, your finances or your future! You are a child of The Most High God and He Love You.
Jesus has come to give us life more abundantly than we could ever imagine. If it takes breaking your hear then let him break it because it is part of a process, a wonderful process that brings more joy than you could ever dream of.
In our situation I had to be obedient to God. I listened with my heart and humbled myself before the Lord and cried out for Him. FIX THIS PLEASE, OUR LIVES ARE BROKEN. I could have divorced my husband and then satin would have won because he would have succeeded in stealing my family. Instead our daughter has learned that although sin is wrong and there are consequences, satin cannot steal from you unless you allow him to. There is a process and she has walked through this process with us as a family. She now knows what a true Godly family is. Not to mention the billion other lessons that we have learned along the way, lessons of forgiveness, love, compassion, Truth, honesty, morality, faithfulness and how to be a good steward over all that God has given to you.
I feel that I am a better mother now and that our daughters will never have to be cursed under the sins of their parents. They will have faith instilled into them. Remember Train your children in Gods word and when they grow up it will be in them and they will not depart from God because they will have a firm foundation of faith.
I could have rejected my husband’s child, and then satin would have won because he would have robbed me of another person to love. But remember, I prayed a prayer in agreement with my daughter and promised God that I would love any child that he sent to me and I will love any child that He sends to me. God put this love in my heart, He know and I know that this child is going to be a mighty woman of God and no devil in hell is going to steal her. In Jesus Name. I love her with my whole entire heart as if she were born of my flesh. Only God could put that kind of love in me because He is Love.
We are still learning along this walk with Jesus. Sharing a child in our situation has moments of hurt because we cannot be with her all of the time and we long to share every moment with her. Through all I know that God has a plan and that we are apart of His plan. We will walk by faith with Jesus Eternally.
No matter what you are going through, please pray this prayer with me right now.
Father God, I love you and I praise you. I amen your word. Jesus you were willing to die on the cross for the forgiveness of my sins and you rose again to come back to this earth and let me know that You are alive. That you are the way the Truth and the life forever, eternally. Jesus I come to you as a sinner and I ask forgiveness for my sins. I thank you for that forgiveness. Love me Jesus, Love me through my circumstance. I know that in your love, I can succeed. Take me from here to there wherever there is Lord because I know that what you have planned for me is far better than anything that I could ever dream of.
I love you and I praise You Father God in Jesus Name Amen
If you need prayer please contact one of the references in this book. I have included our website and e-mail address too. We all stand with you in agreement and in faith for God to turn your situation into that which He wills for you. For His glory your testimony will be!!
May His blessings be released to you and may God prepare your mind, body, spirit and soul to walk in the Truth. Father God Thank you for this brother or sister in Christ. I praise You for all that you are doing in their lives. In Jesus Name Amen
Through this awesome journey with Jesus Christ, He has awakened me and positioned me and revealed unto me His purpose for me. He has granted me the rare and wonderful opportunity to pray and intercede for His people. From the time that I was a child I saw things that I could not explain. I know now that He has called me into the prophetic intercessory gifting. What a journey it has been and I am here to pray for, intercede for and speak His word into your life. Praise God! He truly uses what the devil meant for our harm for good. He alone is good and through Him all things are possible.
Deuteronomy 32 3 Because I will publish the name of the LORD: ascribe ye greatness unto our God. 4 He is the Rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgment: a God of Truth and without iniquity, just and right is he. 5 They have corrupted themselves, their spot is not the spot of his children: they are a perverse and crooked generation
Psalm 25 4 Shew me thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths. 5 Lead me in thy Truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day. 6 Remember, O LORD, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses; for they have been ever of old.
Psalm 40:11 Withhold not thou thy tender mercies from me, O LORD: let thy lovingkindness and thy Truth continually preserve me.
Psalm 51:6 Behold, thou desirest Truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
Psalm 57 2 I will cry unto God most high; unto God that performeth all things for me. 3 He shall send from heaven, and save me from the reproach of him that would swallow me up. Selah. God shall send forth his mercy and his Truth. 4 My soul is among lions: and I lie even among them that are set on fire, even the sons of men, whose teeth are spears and arrows, and their tongue a sharp sword.
Psalm 85 9 Surely his salvation is nigh them that fear him; that glory may dwell in our land. 10 Mercy and Truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other. 11Truth shall spring out of the earth; and righteousness shall look down from heaven.
Psalm 89:14 Justice and judgment are the habitation of thy throne: mercy and Truth shall go before thy face.
Psalm 91 3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. 4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his Truth shall be thy shield and buckler. 5 Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
Psalm 100 4 Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name. 5 For the LORD is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his Truth endureth to all generations.
Psalm 108 3 I will praise thee, O LORD, among the people: and I will sing praises unto thee among the nations. 4 For thy mercy is great above the heavens: and thy Truth reacheth unto the clouds. 5 Be thou exalted, O God, above the heavens: and thy glory above all the earth;
Psalm 111 7 The works of his hands are verity and judgment; all his commandments are sure. 8 They stand fast for ever and ever, and are done in Truth and uprightness. 9 He sent redemption unto his people: he hath commanded his covenant for ever: holy and reverend is his name.
Psalm 117 1 O praise the LORD, all ye nations: praise him, all ye people. 2 For his merciful kindness is great toward us: and the Truth of the LORD endureth for ever. Praise ye the LORD.
Psalm 119 42 So shall I have wherewith to answer him that reproacheth me: for I trust in thy word. 43 And take not the word of Truth utterly out of my mouth; for I have hoped in thy judgments. 44 So shall I keep thy law continually for ever and ever.
Psalm 145 17 The LORD is righteous in all his ways, and holy in all his works. 18 The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in Truth. 19 He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them.
Psalm 146 5 Happy is he that hath the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God: 6 Which made heaven, and earth, the sea, and all that therein is: which keepeth Truth for ever: 7 Which executeth judgment for the oppressed: which giveth food to the hungry. The LORD looseth the prisoners:
Proverbs 3 2 For length of days, and long life, and peace, shall they add to thee. 3 Let not mercy and Truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart: 4 So shalt thou find favour and good understanding in the sight of God and man.
Proverbs 12 18 There is that speaketh like the piercings of a sword: but the tongue of the wise is health. 19 The lip of Truth shall be established for ever: but a lying tongue is but for a moment. 20 Deceit is in the heart of them that imagine evil: but to the counsellors of peace is joy
Proverbs 16 5 Every one that is proud in heart is an abomination to the LORD: though hand join in hand, he shall not be unpunished. 6 By mercy and Truth iniquity is purged: and by the fear of the LORD men depart from evil. 7 When a man's ways please the LORD, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him.
Isaiah 25:1 O Lord, thou art my God; I will exalt thee, I will praise thy name; for thou hast done wonderful things; thy counsels of old are faithfulness and Truth.
Zechariah 8:3 Thus saith the LORD; I am returned unto Zion, and will dwell in the midst of Jerusalem: and Jerusalem shall be called a city of Truth; and the mountain of the LORD of hosts the holy mountain.
John 1 13 Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God. 14 And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and Truth. 15 John bare witness of him, and cried, saying, This was he of whom I spake, He that cometh after me is preferred before me: for he was before me.
John 3:21 But he that doeth Truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.
John 4 23 But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in Truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him. 24 God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in Truth. 25 The woman saith unto him, I know that Messias cometh, which is called Christ: when he is come, he will tell us all things.
John 8:32 And ye shall know the Truth, and the Truth shall make you free.
John 14 5 Thomas saith unto him, Lord, we know not whither thou goest; and how can we know the way? 6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the Truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. 7 If ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also: and from henceforth ye know him, and have seen him.
John 14:17 Even the Spirit of Truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
John 15:26 But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of Truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:
John 16:13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of Truth, is come, he will guide you into all Truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come.
John 17 16 They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. 17 Sanctify them through thy Truth: thy word is Truth. 18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.
Acts 10 33 Immediately therefore I sent to thee; and thou hast well done that thou art come. Now therefore are we all here present before God, to hear all things that are commanded thee of God. 34 Then Peter opened his mouth, and said, Of a Truth I perceive that God is no respecter of persons: 35 But in every nation he that feareth him, and worketh righteousness, is accepted with him.
1 Corinthians 13 5 Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; 6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the Truth; 7 Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.
2 Corinthians 6 6 By pureness, by knowledge, by long suffering, by kindness, by the Holy Ghost, by love unfeigned, 7 By the word of Truth, by the power of God, by the armour of righteousness on the right hand and on the left, 8 By honour and dishonour, by evil report and good report: as deceivers, and yet true;
2 Corinthians 13 7 Now I pray to God that ye do no evil; not that we should appear approved, but that ye should do that which is honest, though we be as reprobates. 8 For we can do nothing against the Truth, but for the Truth. 9 For we are glad, when we are weak, and ye are strong: and this also we wish, even your perfection.
Ephesians 5 8 For ye were sometimes darkness, but now are ye light in the Lord: walk as children of light: 9 (For the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness and righteousness and Truth;) 10 Proving what is acceptable unto the Lord.
Ephesians 6 13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with Truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
1 Thessalonians 2:13 For this cause also thank we God without ceasing, because, when ye received the word of God which ye heard of us, ye received it not as the word of men, but as it is in Truth, the word of God, which effectually worketh also in you that believe.
James 5 18 And he prayed again, and the heaven gave rain, and the earth brought forth her fruit. 19 Brethren, if any of you do err from the Truth, and one convert him; 20 Let him know, that he which converteth the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death, and shall hide a multitude of sins.
1 John 2:27 But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is Truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in him.
1 John 3:18 My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in Truth.
1 John 3:19 And hereby we know that we are of the Truth, and shall assure our hearts before him.
1 John 4:6
We are of God: he that knoweth God heareth us; he that is not of God heareth not us. Hereby know we the spirit of Truth, and the spirit of error.
1 John 5:6 This is he that came by water and blood, even Jesus Christ; not by water only, but by water and blood. And it is the Spirit that beareth witness, because the Spirit is Truth.
2 John 1:3 Grace be with you, mercy, and peace, from God the Father, and from the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in Truth and love.
3 John 1:3 For I rejoiced greatly, when the brethren came and testified of the Truth that is in thee, even as thou walkest in the Truth.
3 John 1:4 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in Truth.
2 Chronicles 20:15 And he said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the LORD unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God's.
Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
Psalm 44:21 Shall not God search this out? for he knoweth the secrets of the heart.
Psalm 139:15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Daniel 2:22 He revealeth the deep and secret things: he knoweth what is in the darkness, and the light dwelleth with him.
Luke 8:17 For nothing is secret, that shall not be made manifest; neither any thing hid, that shall not be known and come abroad.
Luke 11:33 No man, when he hath lighted a candle, putteth it in a secret place, neither under a bushel, but on a candlestick, that they which come in may see the light.
John 7:4 For there is no man that doeth any thing in secret, and he himself seeketh to be known openly. If thou do these things, shew thyself to the world.
John 18:20 Jesus answered him, I spake openly to the world; I ever taught in the synagogue, and in the temple, whither the Jews always resort; and in secret have I said nothing.
1 Corinthians 14:25 And thus are the secrets of his heart made manifest; and so falling down on his face he will worship God, and report that God is in you of a Truth.
